Genesis 2 : 8 (New Living Translation)

Then the Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.”

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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

decision maker, I am not

Words never used to describe Suzanne: "works well under pressure, can handle sticky situations, is flexible and goes with the flow, keeps anxiety level in check"... and newly added, "knows how to balance work and family"

Building on the recent Swagger Wagon discussion, I've been missing my Gracie girl. So, I make a plan! Full time teaching job at the jr college = less time than current full time job. I'll start teaching so I can have more time with her, plus I got two degrees and spent many a year in school so that I could do just that. No time like the present (or 3 or so years ago).

Alas, the community college of my dreams needs an English teacher! Sign me up! Hmmm, what have I signed up for? Let's reevaluate the situation. I want more time with Gracie, so let's teach. I have a full time job now, and I suddenly find myself employed teaching not one, but two classes at night. I'm no math whiz, but pretty sure this equals LESS time with baby girl. So add, "can make important decisions that will benefit her family" to the list of words that do not describe Suzanne.

I have to start somewhere and I need to get started on making the (probably several years long) transition into the teaching world. So, wish me luck (and check on Buddy because he'll be single parenting a lot pretty soon)

Gracie, I love you! Da Da will point at my picture so you will know who I am.

Monday, June 28, 2010


I have had a revelation with Sonya today and I must share... Gracie, just know that I was cool (cooler) before you came along. Basically, I've subconsciously started wearing mom jeans. I didn't even notice what I was doing! I dug out my old jeans that I wore every day in jr college (nearly a decade ago, folks) and I didn't make the connections...

I'm wearing mom jeans. What is wrong with me?! In addition to the mom jeans, I've also got my eye on a swagger wagon - Daddy is not at all ok with any of this (the mom jeans included) Let's all remember that I drive a HEMI 5.7 liter gas hog of a vehicle, that does feel very safe because it's a steel box and gorgeous. But I'm looking to downsize. Better gas mileage, warranty, etc and new car smell. I have not paid off the monstrous HEMI and have been advised to settle down with the talk of selling it (I'm not saying who is against it - wait I already did).

I've convinced myself that material possessions are what's in the way of my spending more time with that sweet baby girl... true and not necessarily true all at the same time. I mean, hey... you gotta get to work and you gotta eat, right? But do I really need a HEMI to get me and my precious cargo where I need to go? If your name starts with Da Da, don't answer that.

Current car:

It does have features I never knew existed. Auto dimming and bright headlamps (no longer called headlights if you didn't know) that's right, I don't have to dim the lights. Power lift gate that opens and closes from either the remote, the back, or above the driver's head... handy in the rain at the grocery store. Automatic windshield wipers that come on and adjust speed with the rain. Navigation is a MUST for this driver. These are things that I've gotten really spoiled to having. I only have to hold the steering wheel and stare at the road. I can yell out commands and my phone - hidden somewhere in my purse which is hidden somewhere in my vehicle magically responds. It is super nice, BUT it's huge and overpriced and in the way of more Gracie time (so I've decided)

Next car (possibilities):

All have the same features - that would be NONE. They do come with warranty and much, much, much better gas mileage, but not much else. They are cheap rides that are even cheaper to operate.
The point is that I'm looking at mom friendly cars and wearing my mom jeans - full blown mom mode and LOVING it!

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